I remember a few weeks back when I was looking for songs by Christian artists that I haven’t heard yet… and I found a certain one that got me. It’s “Do You Want To Know” by Josh Wilson. I actually found this song the night that me and my mom got back from the grocery store and I saw a little girl with an eye patch on one of her eyes. And when I saw her my heart started to hurt. And I said a prayer for her and her family. At that moment so many things were going through my mind at once, I couldn’t sort it all out. Some thoughts were – “How much are the medical bills?” , “Are they stressing out about it?” , “Do they need guidance?” , and most importantly, “Do they know Jesus? The one who will supply all their needs, give them peace that they don’t understand, and guide/carry them through it all?”
Just remembering all of this and listening to the song breaks my heart all over again. With that said, earlier I asked God to break my heart (again) for what breaks His.. Because I realized it wasn’t broken like it used to be for those who don’t know Jesus. I guess I had gotten distracted with life(again). And what got my attention was a post on Xposed2Jesus about feeling stuck. I think I must say that I love God’s timing. Although I get frustrated because He doesn’t do things my way.. and after I say that to Him, I’m reminded of what Isaiah 55:8 says, “For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways,” declares the LORD.
In all honesty, I’m really glad my ways aren’t His ways.. He, unlike me, actually knows what’s going on and is sovereign over it all. I know that He has a plan for my life(Jeremiah 29:11), and that it’s more than I or anyone could ever ask for or imagine(Ephesians 3:20, 1 Corinthians 2:9).
I know that these past few days I’ve been feeling small and that I was stuck and just didn’t know what to do. I felt like I’m just one person, I can’t change the world. And after all, society sure doesn’t expect me to. They’ll think I’m crazy, and that I’m too young to want to do such a thing. And well, Jesus doesn’t seem to agree with society and I don’t either. Just because I’m a teenager doesn’t mean I’m incapable of making a difference. And when someone says teenagers are capable of changing the world, we’re not expected to understand what’s said. And even if we understand, we’re not expected to do anything about it, and even if we do something about it, it’s not expected to last. (I borrowed what I said from the back cover of the book “The Rebelution: A Teenage Rebellion Against Low Expectations”) I’m sure I worded it slightly differently since I lost the book. but the message is the same, society doesn’t expect a whole lot from teens.
After reading that book, I was frustrated with the low expectations. But at the same time, I was really inspired by these young people who rose above those expectations. That book has had me pumped to try my absolute best and nothing less to change the world. I sure don’t have the slightest idea how to change the world, but I’m going to try. My faith is in God who chooses to use those whom the world sees as not qualified enough. But God doesn’t call the qualified, He qualifies the called… and as Ephesians 3:20 says, He’ll do more than what we can ask for or imagine.
Lord, I may be a teenager, but I’m ready and willing to be used by you to make a difference in this world. Help me to see this world with Your eyes.
I want to see people come to know you. And not only that, I want to see them make disciples who make disciples. I want to see them fall in love with You. Lord, give me an undying, all consuming, unashamed, unstoppable passion for You and Your cause.(Matthew 28:19) -Amen.
For the other teens out there::
We may be young, but that doesn’t disqualify us from changing the world.
We, like Rachel Scott, need to start a chain reaction with our lives.
Rachel believed she could change the world one person at a time…and I do too.
oh and you’ve got to check this out…http://www.daretobeadaniel.com/spiritualhelp/read/articles/31/join-the-rebelution/?cat_id=8881
- Kate.
