Thursday, May 27, 2010

Who Am I

I debated with myself for all of two seconds about whether or not I should put a question mark after "Who Am I" , and I decided not to, and as you read this, you'll see why I chose not to put it at the end of the title.

I remember the night of June 17th, 2009 like it was yesterday. It was a wednesday night and I was at church and at the end of the service, someone had put the song "Who Am I" by Casting Crowns on, and I guess I really needed that reminder, because even before the first verse was even over, I found myself crying...


"Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
"

I don't know why God would care so much as to know my name, or even care enough to feel my pain, or even love me so much as to come to earth and die on a cross because of my sin. I don't get it, but I'm in awe of Him.


"Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
"

And before the song was even half way done, I knew I had to write about it... it was my first thing to write about without it being a school assignment, Yes, I've re-read it, I don't think it's the best one, but something inside me told me to begin writing. I didn't even want to write... I thought it was lame and for losers. Well, I guess I'm one of those lame losers then! but whatever label you give me, it doesn't matter, I'm still going to write no matter what I'm called by others who don't understand.

Writing for me, has become a way to get alot of things off my mind and onto something else. Writing has become a huge part of my life... all because I listened to God.

My grandpa would sometimes tell me that because I'm generally a shy person, that I'd become a writer. At the time, I was hoping he'd be wrong... but I think you know what the answer to that is, now. I'm glad he was right.

"I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours
"

There's something the comes to mind, and it's that prison field trip we went on in March, and that number, '5071404' , isn't something that I've forgotten... while we were there, we were told that the number around our necks was our identity.. at least when your in prison, that's your "identity", because there, they don't care what your name is, who your family is, what your personality is like, they just care about you serving your time for the crime you've committed. I've been thinking about the number around our necks, and my identity in Christ... I mean, it's not like when you get to heaven, there will be some angel with gold plates or whatever at some door or something, and handing out them with a number on it... a creation number, like 23435241314312. That would be highly confusing. 'sides, God knows us, by NAME! Not some stupid number.

He actually cares enough to know us by name, know every thing we feel, know exactly how many hairs are on our head, know every thought, know every motive behind our actions, know that we will sin, and still have the same love for us that he'd die on that cross, again for us because of our sin.

"But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us." Romans 5:8

"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life." John 3:16

"For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God — not by works, so that no one can boast." Ephesians 2:8-9

I may only be a teenager who is looked down on, but don't think I'll let you get away with that, I will be more than glad to prove you wrong. God doesn't set age limits on who He can use and how and when He'll use them. He could use a little kid to teach you something, like how much you love them and how much God loves you and things like that. God will use whoever is willing to do what He's called them to, whenever and however He chooses. God doesn't listen to us when we tell Him what we think He should do, He's God, we are not... let Him handle it.

"Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity." 1 Timothy 4:12

"Such is the generation of those who seek him, who seek your face, O God of Jacob." Psalm 24:6

"Show me your ways, O LORD, teach me your paths;" Psalm 25:4

"I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge-that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen (Ephesians 3:16-21)."

"God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by grace you have been saved Ephesians 2:4-5"

Your love, O LORD, reaches to the heavens, your faithfulness to the skies (Psalm 36:5).

How priceless is your unfailing love! Both high and low among men find refuge in the shadow of your wings (Psalm 36:7).

Within your temple, O God, we meditate on your unfailing love (Psalm 48:9).


But I am like an olive tree flourishing in the house of God; I trust in God's unfailing love for ever and ever (Psalm 52:8).

But you, O Lord, are a compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness (Psalm 86:15).

Give thanks to the God of heaven. His love endures forever (Psalm 136:26).

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future" (Jeremiah 29:11).

The LORD appeared to us in the past, saying: "I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving-kindness" (Jeremiah 31:3).


The LORD your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing" (Zephaniah 3:17)

Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends John 15:13).

As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love (John 15:9).

Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written: "For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered." No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord (Romans 8:35-39).


But when the kindness and love of God our Savior appeared, he saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. He saved us through the washing of rebirth and renewal by the Holy Spirit (Titus 3:4-5).

This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him. This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins (1 John 4:9-10).

(Yes, that's a lot of bible verses, and no I don't care)


- Katelyn


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Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Set The World On Fire

Along side with reading 'Do Hard Things: A Teenage Rebellion Against Low Expectations' , I've been writing the campus ministry proposal paper for the next school year. (And yes, sometimes I really think I have lost my mind by doing this!) See, I'm a generally all around shy person who tends not to talk much. (I've come along way from the 'shy' girl I was two years ago! If you knew me then, then you've noticed that I've started to become alot more talkative and out there with my voice than I used to be... oh and I hated writing too... but not any more!) Sometimes, I do get frustrated and ask God, why did you make me shy? I mean, why not pick someone more talkative to do this campus ministry thing and do all the speaking? (Guess we'll have to see what God will do with me then!!)

(Set The World On Fire - Britt Nicole)

I wanna set the world on fire
Until it's burning bright for You
It's everything that I desire
Can I be the one You use?

I, I am small but
You, You are big enough
I, I am weak but
You, You are strong enough to
Take my dreams
Come and give them wings
Lord with You
Nothing I can not do
Nothing I cannot do


I guess no matter how frustrated I get, God can always use me... an unlikely person. But, hey, it's what God does, right? Using unlikely people to accomplish radical things for His glory?

I, I am small but
You, You are big enough
I, I am weak but
You, You are strong enough to
Take my dreams
Come and give them wings
Lord with You
Nothing I can not do


I don't know what my future holds, but I know the one who holds it. And he'll never let me down, ever.

About this whole campus ministry thing, I'm pretty nervous about pretty much all of it! I'm being sent to my high school, my mission field, I'm going to be labled as 'uncool'. but, I'm not afraid.. I know it's coming, or most likely already has, so no need to freak out. just reach out in love and with the hope and purpose that comes from Jesus. I'm freaked out about the whole speaking part of this... I'm shy, and writing is my way of getting it all out.

Andd, to set the world on fire for God, means that standing up for truth won't happen sitting down and staying "safe" in our "bubble" a.k.a comfort-zone. I've realized that if you truly want to live your life for God, then He has called you and me to step out side of that zone, and go all in for it. (aka shred the gnar) Living your life for God is alot more fun than going to the mall on a friday night or a movie on saturday could ever offer!

Doing hard things for God is fantastic... it's a part of living your life all out for God. Comfort zones need to go. You won't regret getting rid of them! No need to fear the unknown, just trust a known God with it, and you'll be fine.

My hands, my feet
My everything
My life, my love
Lord, use me

I wanna set the world on fire
I wanna set the world on fire, yeah

Take my dreams
Come and give them wings
Lord with You
Nothing I cannot do


Are you ready to live that life for God that He has called you to? You may be ready, but are you willing? Are you willing to put your relationships at risk? what your reputation? or even your job? or what about your very life? Are you ready to say to God, "Here am I, Send Me." ?

I can do everything through him who gives me strength. Philippians 4:13

Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, "Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?" And I said, "Here am I. Send me!" Isaiah 6:8

andd I'm gonna set the world on fire.


- Katelyn

Monday, May 17, 2010

No Title!

So, I’ve been reading this book, ‘Do Hard Things: A Teenage Rebellion Against Low Expectations’, and I don’t know why I stopped reading it for a while, but that book is absolutely incredible. I’m on chapter 11, and I have been pushed, challenged and encouraged to go all out for the glory of God. I mean, just reading about other teenagers who are doing things that seem completely crazy, but they’re doing it for God. They’ve found a cause that is bigger than they are and they’re rocking it.

I’m sitting in self development supposed to be writing about something… I don’t know. I’m glad we’re allowed to listen to music… and I’m glad I’m not sitting close to the teachers desk and glad that dimming the brightness on this screen is possible. Anyways, I was sitting here flipping through my music hoping to find something with a good beat that will tune out these guys who get on my nerves… and I found one! “Activate” by Stellar Kart.

Make a move
'Cause talk is really cheap
You'll never start a revolution
In your sleep
Showing love to everyone
Is what it's all about I think I'm ready to go

Don't stop 'til everybody knows

This is the purpose of my life
This is the reason I'm alive
Don't have time to wait
Activate, activate


I’m on the chapter that shares the stories of how other teens have been doing crazy awesome things that are a lot bigger than they are. Ever since I’ve started reading it again, it’s gotten me thinking of what I could do for God… but whatever that “big” thing may be, I’ve been warned that going at alone is a dumb choice. Whatever this big thing is, I’m in no matter what it is. Whether it’s starting a campus ministry and reaching out to the other 1,000 + people at my high school.. or whatever God has, I'm for it, and don't want to shut that door of opportunity with fear and/or pride.

It’s a task I can’t tackle alone, And I'm slowly learning to take things one at a time... I'm a slow learner, I guess.

Earlier, in last hour of school, I finished the book. Now, I've got to do a hard thing for the glory of God!

It'a almost my Junior year of high school, and I'm just now getting the fact that I need to take things one at a time and not try to tackle everything at once... it's an epic fail on my part. But, I'm totally hoping and praying that it has actually hit me, and I take this whole starting a campus ministry thing slowly. Maybe make a check list? Good grief, I hardely know where to start with that either! My grandpa told me I need to get my ducks in a row... geez grumpa, ya gotta be right?!

I know this will be hard, will be a slow start, but I know that if this is what God wants, then Kansas City, get ready for your world to be rocked!

Doing hard things for the glory of God, is well hard, but from what I've read in that book, it's all worth it. Every sweat, every tear, every put down, etc, is all worth it in the end. I guess what people expect when they do a hard thing for God, is imediate results, no tears, and less hard work... but it doesn't work like that.

I'm stoked and can't wait to see what'll happen! I know it will be hard, and I don't know what my future holds but I know who holds my future.

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Wednesday, May 5, 2010

An Urgant Emergancy!

I just realized something very important today after hearing this type of conversation for the second time already... and the second time, it really got me and my attention. Why haven't I been taking this seriously? Why have I always found myself saying "I'll do it... tomorrow." ? Why doesn't our hearts break for those who don't know Jesus? Don't we get it?! They, tonight, could go home... and the next thing you hear in the morning on the news or school announcements is that 1. either they commited suicide or 2. they got into a bad car accident or 3. they, when they get home, for no reason at all, just because someone had a terrible day at work, decides that when their child gets home, they're going to beat them to death and the neighbors do nothing! It's sad, but you know it's true. What will you do to save your friends from that eternal place known as hell? Which is an eternity seperated from God.

We just can't grasp the concept of 'eternity'... we have 24/7 365... eternity doesn't opperate on time.

These conversations that I heard, involved topics of sex, calling someone gay, murder/suicide/killing some bird... I guess it all hit me because, I've realized, that one of the guys on my bus has talked about things like murder beofore and when he gets older, he said he sees himself like killing alot of people... I asked him "Do you really see that in your future?" he said "yeah" and the only I said back was "wow." Lame, I know. And this guy has told me that, in the past, he has tried to commit suicide... and has said he hates God.



When you play that song by Leeland, and if you've heard it before you read this or didn't play it because you just didn't feel like it, well, you should play the song even if you've heard it before. When you play it, I want you to not only hear these lyrics but truly and honestly listen to them and really think about what they mean.. and as you do that, think of that friend or a group of friends of yours that don't know Jesus, and I challenge you today, to step out in faith... and share Christ's love with them. They're not promised tomorrow and neither are you. So what exactly are you waiting for? Get off the side lines, and do what Jesus has called you to do. If you truly believe in Jesus and heaven and hell, then how much do you have to hate someone to not share this amazing truth with them? Do it. Today.


Ever since this has hit me, I've been wondering if our hearts really do break for those who don't know Jesus. To be honest, they don't. Because if they did, we'd be doing everything we can to reach out to our friends, our family members, that guy or girl at the coffee shop with the love and hope that Jesus offers freely... and we'd be doing it til the whole world hears. Til our friends hear it and it's presented in a clear way and they, for the first time, actually get it... and then they tell their friends and so on and so on... like a domino effect... except no one's falling down, their being lifted up into loving everlasting arms.

There are many prodigal sons
On our city streets they run
Searching for shelter
There are homes broken down
People’s hopes have fallen to the ground
From failures

This is an emergency!

There are tears from the saints
For the lost and unsaved
We’re crying for them come back home
We’re crying for them come back home
And all your children will stretch out their hands
And pick up the crippled man
Father, we will lead them home


Maybe you haven't thought about this lately, or it's never even came to your attention, but have you ever thought about those people that you walk by everyday, could have been someone who was so on fire for God and then they got all caught up their old ways and walked away from God? or their parents just got a divorce? or they just found out their dad is getting married again and they don't know how to handle it? and that night, when they get home, are planning on killing themselves and then the next morning you hear it on the news? Maybe, just maybe, God has put them in your path for a reason. Maybe you can help them find their way back home in the arms of love.

There are many prodigal sons
On our city streets they run
Searching for shelter
There are homes broken down
People’s hopes have fallen to the ground
From failures

This is an emergency!


Those people that you see everyday (friends, family, strangers) are real people with very real problems who need the real hope and love that Jesus offers freely.

It's an emergancy! An urgant one at that! Far too often we say "I'll do it... tomorrow." tomorrow doen't come for anyone. So why not share Jesus with someone today? I doulbe dare you to share Jesus with them!




- Katelyn

Saturday, May 1, 2010

True Beauty Of A Woman

I'm just sitting here on couch thing in my bed room, and I have my mp3 player playing the song plain by Zoegirl and I love what the song has to say.


He made you feel plain
When he forgot your name
Well let me tell you something,
I have felt the same.
I know you're in pain
But there'll be another Boy along the way and
God he made you beautiful and
There's nothing about you thats plain.


I bet it does make you feel plain when that guy you're dating decides that the other girl who sits in front of him in class with the most immodest clothing on everyday, that's school "appropriate". He likes looking at her legs, her chest, lets just say he has a way of "undressing" her with his eyes... (seeing a guy do this to another girl who is not his wife or girlfriend, is slightly beyond disturbing...)

I have a feeling that when you read that, you were thinking something about the way you look and about how much you fail to reach something that this world has defined as "perfection" . I know I fail at that, but I don't care. This world doesn't even know the first thing about a woman's true beauty. It's on the inside.


You tell me you're not the type
The kind of girl that they like
And your a little insecure about
How you look in their eyes.
Well fashion will change,
Trends come and go everyday,
But God only made one of you and
There's nothing about you thats plain


Is it possible to count how many times we've been to someplace like wal-mart, or whereever that has magazines by the checkout line, and practically stared at that magazine of that chick and thinking "man, I wish I looked like that" ? Probably not possible... because we do it everytime.

No one looks like the "person" in the magazine... it's called photoshop. Those people don't even like that. So why the heck are we even bothering with wishing to meet the worlds unrealistic definition for 'beauty' ?

You know I've had my days,
When I feel out of place....yea
I look at who I am,
Cover what I can ,
I wish it all would change. But...
Take the makeup away
You see the same girl still remains..
She may not feel that beautiful
But theres nothing about her thats plain.


You know you have those days where you just wish you looked like that person in the magazine that you saw yesterday. Or maybe you wish that you looked better? Why bother comparing yourself to a photoshopped photo? Is it really worth it? I don't think so.

"The LORD does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart."

If you'd just take that make-up away and not wear it, I bet you'd feel more beautiful without it than you do with it on... just know who you are in God's sight.
God made you beautiful and there's nothing about you that's plain. I have days where I don't wear makeup, and I feel better without than I do with it... that is when I don't let the world bring me down.

You are a jewel you're a treasure
You are one of a kind and
You shine just a bright as
The stars in the sky.
You're a rare kind of wonder created just right
So keep your head up no matter the pain
Theres nothing about you thats plain.

See your mind, it is precious
Though your heart may be restless
And your eyes they will see
All that you're meant to be
'Cause your spirit is strong
And your soul carries on
You'll keep your head up no matter the pain
There's nothing about you that's plain


You may have felt plain,
But...God, He knows your name
Let me tell you something,
There's nothing about you that's plain


I don't get why women (not all but some) feel the need to wear clothing that reveals too much. What happend to modesty? Why must you wear clothes that will tempt a guy to cross the line with you in his mind? What about those Christian guys, who are fighting the fight of purity? Why disrespect them and tempt them to sin in their mind?

"And so, by sinning against the brethren and wounding their conscience when it is weak, you sin against Christ. Therefore, if food causes my brother to stumble, I will never eat meat again, so that I will not cause my brother to stumble.” 1 Corinthians 8:12-13

Every single lady is beautiful... whether we agree with that or not. God made them in His image. He loves them. He died for them.

Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised. Proverbs 31:30

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

Friends, this world is not your home, so don't make yourselves cozy in it. Don't indulge your ego at the expense of your soul. Live an exemplary life among the natives so that your actions will refute their prejudices. Then they'll be won over to God's side and be there to join in the celebration when he arrives. 1 Peter 2:11-12

What matters is not your outer appearance—the styling of your hair, the jewelry you wear, the cut of your clothes—but your inner disposition. 1 Peter 3:3-4

And I want women to get in there with the men in humility before God, not primping before a mirror or chasing the latest fashions but doing something beautiful for God and becoming beautiful doing it. 1 Timothy 2:9

If God created us, than what He says really does matter and we should take it seriously.

Here's something that's on this piece of paper that I have up on my bed room wall:

"The beauty of a woman, isn't in the clothes she wears. The figure that she carries or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman is seen in her eyes, because that's the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides. The true beauty of a woman is reflected by her soul. It's the caring that she gives and the passion that she shows. And the beauty of a woman, with passing years, only grows."


P.S There's nothing about you that's plain<3