"When I Grow Up, I Don't Want To Be Anybody But Myself."

A month ago I was babysitting my little cousins, and we were waiting for my friend, Rosemary, to hurry up and come get in the car and hang out with me for awhile... well, while we were waiting, my three year old cousin randomly says, "When I grow up, I don't want to be anybody but myself." What she said seems to stick for me... Because that's all I want to be. Me. I want to be all that God calls of me to be. If I'm uncool for it, then so be it... I've never worried about fitting in, I'm me. I'm a teenager who loves Jesus more than my very own life.


I've been thinking about that quote, and I'm really going to apply it more to my life each day. I just want to be me... and that's that. I'm not worried about fitting in, I'm me.. and if I have to, I'll form my own "clique" consisting of everyone that the world considers "junk" , "unwanted" , "unloved" , "loner" , "loser" , "emo" ... etc. You get the point. I don't care about cliques in this world.. (it just bothers the heck out of me when they're in churches... I just don't get that.)


It seems like when I say I just want to be me, people don't get it. I mean, I'm a teenager for one, and I'm a Christian. People don't expect anything from teens... and what about Christian teenagers? It's still the same... we're still teenagers, just ones who love Jesus. And what about when you say you want to reach the world for Jesus? Your friends? Your family? Strangers? All for Jesus? See, majority of adults don't expect us to understand and even if we understand, they don't expect us to care, and even if we care, they don't expect us to do anything about it... and even if we do do something about it, they don't expect it to last... and I'm just grateful I know alot of adults who aren't like that... hardly any of them are related to me. So a huge thankyou to those of you adults who actually believe in us younger people and challenge us to do what Jesus has said for all of us to do!!!


While I may not reach the whole world, I can reach mine. I can reach out to my friends, my family, strangers in my city. There's no limit on who God can use. He can use a new born baby to teach you something, you can use a kid like my little three year old cousin to teach you something, he can even use me... and you. You may be uncool, or a loner, or dress like your "emo", whatever... it doesn't matter, God doesn't have a limit anywhere. So we should stop trying to place our limits on God. We can't take over His throne, He's in charge. Not us. He will use what he wants, who he wants, where he wants, and how he wants. He is God. You are not. He will do what's right. If you have any problem with that, take it up with Him.

Oh and speaking about changing my world for Jesus, I'm soo glad that 2010 is almost over.! This year has been really tough... but I've learned alot. and I'm ready to take it with me into 2011.. I'm ready for what God has for me and this campus ministry and with Gospel Journey Maui that I have planned to be starting in February. I'm stoked. but nervous. :) and that's okay. because I know that God will do something there at my high school. Pray for me? I'm the student leader, and pray for everyone else. 2010, you've been crazy tough, and I'm ready for you to leave. :)





So go ahead, put it all in reverse. Die to yourself and live to serve. I refuse to sit and wait for someone else to do what God has called me to do myself... what about you?


“ no eye has seen,
no ear has heard,
and no human mind has conceived—
the things God has prepared for those who love him." -1 Corinthians 2:9-


Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith and in purity. -1 Timothy 4:12-


"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." -Jeremiah 29:11-


For I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God that brings salvation to everyone who believes: first to the Jew, then to the Gentile. -Romans 1:16-


And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been called according to his purpose. -Romans 8:28-

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. -Romans 8:38-39-

Alight, I'm done ranting for now. :) I hope you got something out of it. :)



- Kate.

Where's The Line To See Jesus?

Agh! Can Anyone Help?!

Alright. I have a question. and I don't know if any one of you can help... :)
I'm trying to figure out how to put a book together, and I have no clue where to start. I want it to be a Christian Devotional book with my writings in it. Can any of you help me?! Mucho gracias!!


Whoever legitmatly helps me, I'll give you a free copy of it whenever I can get it published. :)

The Revolve Tour. Kansas City, Missouri. February 4th-5th.

I seriously want to go sooooo freaking bad!!!!!! Pray I get to go!!! Please? It would help me tons. and I'm thinking about inviting my best friend come with me... pray for her.. she hasn't been to church in almost three years. Mucho gracias!

Possibly the CUTEST song ever!!

You Say I'm Already Beautiful.

It may be a little early to some, but I've already got my new year's resolution going. And, as the title says, it's about beauty. God already says I'm beautiful, and therefore, I don't need to wear make-up to feel that way.(and if I do wear it, it's because I want to... it's not because I've forgotten who I am and to who I belong to.)

I've been thinking, who do I value more? The approval of God or the approval of man? I know makeup makes someone beautiful on the outside, but that doesn't make their dark heart beautiful... Real beauty doesn't fade like outward beauty does. Real beauty is what's in you... and God says I'm beautiful, and He said He lives in me. I don't find my worth in worldly things, I don't find it in being a "rockstar", I find it in God alone.


Of course I have days when I feel out of place, I look at who I am on the outside, cover what I can, wishing it all would change, but take the makeup away, and you'll see that the same girl still remains. I may not feel all that beautiful, but there's nothing that's plain about me. God made me, He knows me, He loves me, and He doesn't make junk! God sees you as a masterpiece.


For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be. - Psalm 139:13-16


Psalm 139:14, says that "I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. " Try this beauty tip: Every morning when you look in the mirror, say Psalm 139:14 and smile. You might even tape the verse on your mirror as a reminder!


I know where I'm putting it... On my mirror!! :) Speaking of Mirrors, Barlow Girl has a song titled "Mirror" :) Go listen to it.!

Just Once More...

Right now, I'm not even sure what my mood is... But I'm pretty sure it's a combination of being stressed, confused, and feeling rushed and lossing time that I can't get back..

But it feels like if I get stressed out a tad bit more, I'll really want to quit. and it feels like if I'm shown why I even started this campus ministry thing to start with, I'll keep at it no matter what. But it seems to be more of the first one in my case.

Just once more, can't someone tell me why I've started it cause I seem to have forgotten? through being stressed out, because teachers don't know, and WILL NOT know the answer to their question of 'why'...

my heart should have came with a warning sign saying: WARNING: THIS HEART IS FRAGILE. HANDLE WITH LOVE. (but i guess people don't read labels anymore?)

I needed to vent anyways... night.

I'm UN'd. Are You? 116!

For I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God that brings salvation to everyone who believes: first to the Jew, then to the Gentile. - Romans 1:16

So there's this song, that is my absolute favorite. It describes me :)



For I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God that brings salvation to everyone who believes: first to the Jew, then to the Gentile. - Romans 1:16

UN'd.

• UNashamed.
• UNcool.
• UNalone
• UNleashed.
  

See, it's something that I don't mind being. :)

Yes, I'm UNashamed. (Romans 1:16) Yes, I'm UNcool. (1 Corinthians 1:18, Matthew 10:39) Yes, I'm UNalone. (Hebrews 13:5) Yes, I'm UNleashed. (Matthew 28:18-20) And you should be too!

anyways, I got to go to youth group. Later!

My Own Little World video.

this video was created by a very talented 15 year old somewhere... and she did an awesome job! (that little car is about the coolest thing ever. and matthew west should see it.. just sayin') I have a story of something that happened this year on 10.17.2010.



My Story:: Me and my momma we're driving to my grandma's house, and I noticed two people on the street corner with the cardboard signs, and I looked over at my mom, and said "Momma," she knew that look ......on my face, which said it all. So she handed me three dollars, and waved to the lady to come over here, and I got out the car, (the lady looked really appreciative by that) and I walked over there to where she was, handed her the little bit of money that we had, and then I asked her, "Can I give you a hug?", and she gave me the hug, and then said, "Can I ask you a question?", before she finished her hug, and I said "Sure.", and with the most sincere look on her face, she said, "Do you have any water?"

I have never felt so bad in my life, I had to tell her "No." And I wish I could've helped her with that right then, but I couldn't. I have never hated that word, No, so much as I did then... There was a guy there, but I didn't get to him. (I felt a little rushed) but it made me feel so bad, tears came to my eyes and to hers. I really think she saw it on my face that I didn't want to tell her no...

and so I walked back to the car, crying... only to hear that my mom was crying too. I felt soo bad. I cried even more, when my mom asked, "What'd she say?" and I told her somehow through my tears, that she asked for some water.. It's a mome...nt I wont forget.

My own little world, isn't about me... In Ephesians 5:1, it says that we are to be imitators of God. In Matthew somewhere, Jesus says, "Whatever you have done for the least of these, you have done for me."

and then, when we arrived at my grandma's house, I told her the story, and got some money to buy them some water... and got a plastic baggy and filled it with not only some water bottles (three for each of them. six in total) and they each got an apple, two things of apple sauce, a thing of yogurt with a spoon... and the best of all, a Bible. I wrote something in the front on the page, and said to that they're loved no matter what, and that I hope to see their faces in Heaven some day. And then I placed a bookmark in the book of John and underlined John 3:16.♥

but when we got back to the spot they were originally, only the guy was still there. I was bummed she wasn't there, I tried looking for her, but didn't find her. and so I met the guy, gave him a bag of the few things, and the change from buying the water bottles.

In all honesty I have never met anyone who was more greatful, and appreciative than him. I gave him a bag with the things in it that I mentioned earlier, and the look on his face by the fact that I went out of my way to get out of the car, ...not only hand him some money, but a bag with things in it too.

I have never met anyone who was more appreciative, and grateful, and just happy to get that. I gave him a hug too. :) and he thanked me four times, I counted. :)♥

oh yeah, today also marks the day two years ago, that God rocked my world... just sayin', God's awesome.♥

here's my challenge, reach out to someone who needs Jesus this week. No excuses are acceptable. Jesus said to make disciples, so do it!! you love them don't you,? so share Jesus with them!!

it's an eternity without Him. literally. have you done your homework on hell... it's a real place, where people are headed to... do something to change that.

consider yourself challenged.

lovee


(I took that picture after I cried... it was an awesome moment. I'm going to put my life in reverse, die to myself and live to serve.) You in?

Rachel's Challenge Video.

I would absolutely love to have Rachel's Challenge in my High School...

.:♥:. How Beautiful Is Your Unfailing Love .:♥:.

I don't know if I could've picked a better title for this post. (: Does anyone else find it crazy that it's the first day of the last month for the year, 2010? It's crazy, and if I'm honest here, and I always try to be, this year by itself, has been one heck of a roller coaster. And I'm not sure how to explain it all, but certain people in my life get a huge thank you for being there and putting up with me when I didn't want to put up with myself. I guess friends are those people who sing the song in your heart back to you when you've forgotten the lyrics. But, I have no choice but to give credit where it is due... the one who never left me no matter what, and loved me when I didn't love Him back, the one whom I'm willing to look uncool for... but that's okay, I'm not bothered by it. I guess if it makes me uncool, then I must be doing something right, right?

I'm not sure what to type, this year has brought so much onto my young life. I'm just thankful that God's the one writing my life story for His glory. There's something that always amazes me, it's the fact that bad things have happened in my life, and God has turned them into something that is so beautifully written that God could only do. If I was in charge of writing my own life story, I sure would not have my parents divorce in it. and I most definitely would never ever have written in the way I found out (via text message from my grandpa to my moms phone. He didn't know that I had it and was going to give it to my mom when the text came. My jaw dropped, tears came along with questions. I've never felt so much pain in my life.) my dad getting married again... I wouldn't even hint towards it. But I'm not in charge, and these things did happen and they're apart of me now, and I am who I am today because of God. It's just that simple.

Those situations have brought some of the worst pain I've faced, but I was never alone in either of them. I fell for the lies that satan was telling me, and he twisted so much truth, and i fell for it. He knows exactly what he's doing... figuring me out wasn't rocket science. I just love how what he intends to use to bring harm, God uses for His glory. Yeah, I bet that makes him mad. Even though it was tough, I'm glad I know the people I know and love the One who died for me and had every single sin, pain, hurt, anger, etc on Him... He carried my shame, my guilt, my pain, my sin, nailed 'em to the cross... and I'm forgiven by God's grace. I'm a sinner saved by the undeserved Grace of an incredible Holy God.

Life throws us all curve balls and we don't know what to do. It's tough, I get that. I've been there, but no one understands like God does. He loves you. He created you. Your name is on the palm of His hands. He stepped down from Heaven to live the life none of us can never live, no matter how "good" we say we are, we are no where near perfection. He died the death we deserve. I was listening to this one song a few weeks ago, I don't remember what the name of it is, but it said something like every time we sin, the nail in His wrists goes deeper.

It's hard for us to understand that God died to save us from Hell now and Hell later... My puny brain can't grasp the concept of this incredible Holy God who should have given us all what we deserve... an eternity seperated from Him in Hell. But God chose to die for us, and by putting our faith in Him alone, life with Him starts now and lasts all through eternity.

I think that's all I wanted to say for now... my hands are FREEZING! I'll stop typing and hopefully my coffee is still warm enough. (:

Hope you have a fantastic december, and MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

"See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands;
your walls are ever before me" - Isaiah 49:16

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." - Romans 8:28

"What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written:

“For your sake we face death all day long;
we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”

No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." - Romans 8:31-39

In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. ²⁷ And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God. - Romans 8:26-27

I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. ¹⁹ For the creation waits in eager expectation for the children of God to be revealed. - Romans 8:18

Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. - James 1:2-4

but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. - Isaiah 40:31

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because they have not believed in the name of God’s one and only Son. This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but people loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil. Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that their deeds will be exposed. But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what they have done has been done in the sight of God. - John 3:16-21

He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death, or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away. - Revelation 21:4

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love." 1 Corinthians 13:4-7,13♥

"When I came to you, brothers, I did not come with eloquence or superior wisdom as I proclaimed to you the testimony about God. For I resolved to know nothing while I was with you except Jesus Christ and him crucified. I came to you in weakness and fear, and with much trembling. My message and my preaching were not wit...h wise and persuasive words, but with a demonstration of the Spirit's power, so that your faith might not rest on men's wisdom, but on God's power." - 1 Corinthians 2:1-5♥

that everyone who believes may have eternal life in him. - John 3:15

¹³ For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
¹⁴ I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
¹⁵ My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
¹⁶ Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
¹⁷ How precious to me are your thoughts,^a]">[a] God!
How vast is the sum of them!
¹⁸ Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you. -Psalm 139

- Kate.